Monday, August 23, 2010

Discouraged

I am feeling very discouraged.  On July 3rd I hurt my upper back.  I had been having pain on and off for a few weeks but I ignored it.  On July 3 it could no longer be ignored.  I was lifting a pan of chicken out of the oven and I felt like fire ripped from bottom to top of my back.  For 3 days I was pretty much an invalid.  I couldn't get up from a chair or sit down without crying.

I decided to see a chiropractor.  I had never been to one before.  He said the area of my back that hurt was in alignment but my neck and lower back were way out of alignment.  My right hip was also a 1/4" above my left hip.  At first the treatments seemed to help.  But I just had my 8th visit over a 4 week time span.  I hurt so much.  He said as long as the pain keeps moving and doesn't stay in one spot that is a good sign.  The pain has been moving some days I can not lift my right arm and then it is gone in a day or two.  Other times my right hip hurts so much I can hardly walk.

I feel very discouraged.  I have never had chronic pain.  This has been going on for almost 2 months.  I feel like I am wasting so much time.  There is so much to be done, I don't have time for pain.  I know that sometimes you need to go through something bad in order to appreciate something you have taken for granted.  I can't wait to feel well again.  I don't want to take good health for granted.

This is such a somber post.  I hate to even write it.  I feel like a hypochondriac with a different pain everyday.  I just woke up from a rough night's sleep.  I will end this and grab my ice pack and my Bible.  There is a true source for inspiration.

1 comment:

  1. I'm still praying, Jill. Also...and I mean this...if you want to try out massage, I can watch the kiddos so your hubby can go with you. A play date with the Blackberry Forest Farm kids would be celebrated around here:)

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